Today is a fished-up day. screw you.
Must you ruin my entire life? are you living my life? im the one living it fyi, stop controlling me as though i'm a 3-year old kid.
I'm freaking 15, i know when to study, when to take a break, everything. Why must you always cut in? Why isit that you never ever put yourself in my shoes and think for me?
Have you ever knew how i felt? Why must i always bear this kind of nonsense ?
I tell you and yet, you don't even try to think for me, only being so self-centered. I don't like to post this kinda thing in my blog, i don't want to attract attention, but when i come to a limit, then i can't take it anymore.
Confiscating my phone cus i've been talking on it for 1h+? ok maybe its quite long but, what do you want from me? It's not as if i didn't study right? i study everyday, even my WEEKENDS, like a no-lifer.
You even saw it with your own eyes, and yet, you still give me so much stress. It's only the 3rd week of school , can't you just let me relax a little and stuff? i need to de-stress.
I need to take a damn break. Studying whole day in sch + cca+ studying at home drives me crazy, insane, exhuasting, everything.
I've already done my part, i enter 3e1 as your wish, i study even during weekends, i controlled my myself from using computer unnecessarily, reduced time going out with friends, everything, and yet, you don't even give me a break on a friday night.
What now? Am i supposed to live my life without phone, comp, and study 24/7 like some no-lifer?
You claimed that you've given me break, so taking 1h+ off is too much?
I'm 15, i know when to study, when to play. Heard of the phrase, work hard, play hard? Ha but i'm sure it doesn't apply to you.
To you, there's only work hard, play little.
I feel like i've no freedom ok. Isit me who've really changed THAT MUCH or isit really you? Idontknow.
I just know i need a PROPER LIFE, more freedom. I know how to control myself, if not i'll not end up in 3e1 =,=
I've a limit to everything.
I'm done ranting. Don't ask me what've happened.
School's been boring. my class is pretty boring. i think i've quite not bad teachers for most of them??
i miss my 2e1 alot though.
Been forcing myself to stay awake in class and pay attention in lessons. i think i've accomplished that for now. Hope it will last.
I guess that's all. i don't have pictures sorry.
Btw, my phone is confiscated for now. Will not reply texts until i get it back.
Goodnight.
I want to be a happy, carefree girl who has no troubles.
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