Hope seems to have disappeared totally.

Hello.
Nothing much happened today.
Had cluster quiz.
Bedok View VS Temasek.
& Bedok View won.
Okay was about to go ME.
1/2, 1/3, 1/6, 1/7 classes things kena stolen.
& classroom were all locked -.-
CIP sucks can.
I clean Hum. Room till my hand can break lah.
Scrape off those marks/footprints on wall.
Then 1hour later finish alr so went classroom.
Then scrape marks/footprints on wall,
AGAIN.
Wtf ._.
My hand is so freaking gona break soon.
Went to talked to darling Yi Na alot of stuffs.
Let out everything :)
Thanks Yi Na for listening to me! :)
Went to bedok inter mit my mum after that.
Chatted?
& i saw Ivan there.
HAHA LOL.
Shall end here today.
Byebye.

To Si Min :
Hey dear ! Cheer up. Idk how to really help you. The only thing i can do is give you advices & be ur listening ear. I hope this helps. Dont feel so sad please. It hurts me seeing you so sad sad. Cheer up please. Remember, there are always a lot of people who will care for you. Cheer up, smile. Things will get better as time passes by. You may feel depressed or scared now, but things will really get better in future. Cheer up please. You are only sec 1, and theres still a long way to go. I can be your listening ear if you want to. But remember, dont ever think about hurting yourself. It wont do you any good. Think positive alrights. I will always be there for you k. You can talk to me if you want to. Yanyan loves you forever! ♥♥♥♥♥

To Jia Hui :
Hey dear, im not very sure of whats happening to you. But i hope that you will also feel better as time passes by. If you nid to talk to anyone, you can always talk to me yea? Dont feel so depressed or hurt yourself k ! Crying is ok, but DONT EVER hurt yourself. Think positive too alrights ! I will always be there for you! Cheer up & smile ! Yanyan loves you forever! ♥♥♥♥♥

Too many things had happened. I cant seem to let all out. It hurts alot inside my heart. Not knowing what to do, i can only cry in silence. Telling myself things will get better. One moment, i can sense hope. And yet the next moment, all my hope seems to be gone. Idk what to do. I cant seem to control myself. Trying to smile everyday acting like nothing had happened is hard. I cant seem to do anything. Im scared of taking the wrong step or doing the wrong thing. Im scared of all these happening. Crying seems to solve, but deep inside my heart, i still feel the same. Should i give up? Idk. All i know is i dont feel any sense of hope from this moment onwards. And my heart hurts alot, seriously.